Together

Dancing with the feet is one thing, but
dancing with the heart is another.  ~Author Unknown

The waltz
developed in the 17^th century as a Bavarian county folk dance before
it was rushed European ballrooms in the early 1800’s. The waltz is s gentle and
romantic dance with very soft and long sweeping movements. The waltz with its
swift turning figures and stylish poses is a dance that commands attention.
This widely desired dance consists of a forward or backward step, a side step,
and finally a step close the feet together. Each step is as confident and fluid
as the next.

This
dance of beauty, passion, and love,

Brought
us together as the olive and a dove.

We
glide amongst the brilliant and gallant,

Past
the lack luster and those without talent.

Through
many moons you and I have done this together,

No
doubt with poise and grace intertwined arms forever.

We’ve
done this dance many times before,

Same
sequence, various steps, and occasionally more.

Been
partners for years,

Unfortunately
our fears,

Came
true,

Our
steps, with no connect, became askew.

Countless
times, we tried to recover,

Sorry
to say, there was no saving one another.

Our
glides became shallow bone breaking strides and skips,

Overall
dysfunctional and irrational hips.

We
tried but failed the motion,

Our
success resembled a battleship in a river rather than a vibrant ocean.

Unable
to fight the tide and overhead waves,

Our
body yearns for this which it craves.

Adding
another partner would fix our ordeal,

Honestly,
it became worse and broke its appeal.

You
see, the waltz was only a two person dance,

No
practice, you won’t even give it a chance.

We
use to have such a unique connection,

From
the beginning, right at the inception.

No
longer has this love affair existed,

It
was gone with a flick of the wrist, I’ve been blacklisted.

I
wish we could prance along the ground forever,

But
sometimes the best aren’t meant together.

Searching
and finding a new partner soon,

This
love affair cannot be replicated under the luminous moon.

All
that can be done is hope and pray,

We’ll
dance that waltz again someday.

Obstruction

Anyone
can do any amount of work, provided it isn't the work he is supposed to be
doing at that moment.  ~Robert Benchley

Holidays are a quite joyous and
celebratory occasion. I mean, THINK ABOUT IT! There’s so much you can do during
holidays. For example, embracing those elongated awaited arms of your immediate
family. If not that, how about, indulging in mischief and deduced behavior with
close friends? Or how about emerging in the forefront of the dangerous and
possibly life threatening holiday shopping? Hmm, all those sound undeniably,
fun, BUT, alas professors in universities do not think so kindly to the holiday
season. You see these fowl creatures that inhabit the minds and eyes of its
prisoners decide that the holidays are not meant for pleasantry but anguish and
hostility. OH, the joys of the awaited break at the tips of its admirers proverbial
claws. Counting down the days reverts to counting down the hours. Minutes upon
minutes remaining, the anticipation is the best part.

. . . THAT’S WHEN IT
HIT!

Before running off to their long
awaited freedom, the teacher uniquely recalls a faint memory at that very
second before reaching what’s been sought after for so long. TEST NEXT WEDNESDAY after break. Test?
The idea of a test being issued out after break is shown on each pupils face as
disaster, devastation and angst. Those that continue to watch the creature for
any slight or sudden sense of a belated April fool’s joke see a slight grin on
the face of the creature as it turns waves and wishes all a pleasant break.

Filthy humor?

Foolishness?

Well that’s that was my first
thought when presented with that horrible distasteful humor. Lucky me, everyone
loves to bring books over the break. One student’s first thought was to slash
the creatures tires. I laughed but they were oh so serious; they gave me the
model, year and type of car.

All I really want to do is Eat,
Sleep, & Be Marry. That’s not too much to ask for is it? EXACTLY! Tell that
to my professor.

Brain Nectar

A thought

Amongst feelings

Invites an urge

Associated with a longing

Which activates an impulse

That guides the action with no effect

05/12/2009 11:53am

Medical Rx

Patience is the support of weakness; impatience the ruin of
strength.
Charles Caleb Colton



 

Eager; Antsy; Anxious; Abrupt; Hasty; Gung ho

The similarities
between each of these terms boil down to one identical word… IMPATIENT.

This flaw in the
personality can be generally caused by stress. People generally, on average,
know they suffer from this personality defect. Some may suffer from impatient
triggers which need to be controlled in order to contain their impatience. Being
able to learn what ones impatience triggers are and how to identify the proper signaling
when patience is diverting to impatience will gradually become steps toward treatment.

§ CAUSES

o  arrogance,
insensitivity, overbearing behaviors

§ SYMPTOMS

o  cutting
others off mid-sentence, make what appears to be uninformed – a quick judgment,
snapping back at others in response to a question or request

§ TREATMENT

o  REMOVE
ONESELF FROM THE SITUATION.
If one can’t physically, emotionally remove oneself

§ Counting
[to ten] helps those that are confronted with a difficult decision

o  PRACTICE
ACTIVE LISTENING. Allow
sufficient eye contact to give the person the attention they seek.

§ DO NOT
formulate your response before they have finished speaking.

o  SLOW
ONES REBUTTAL DOWN. Speak in
a lower octave alongside speaking slowly. This will give you the appearance that
you seemingly have grown patience.

o  REWARD
ONESELF FOR THE PATIENT RESPONSE.
One should identify the effort that was made when not overacting to that
particular situation and how good it felt to stay calm.

§ PROGNOSIS

o  Depending
on the severity, the full treatment may take 6+ months on average.

o  If
undergoing, chronic impatience, intense training and retraining maybe
necessary.

§ COMPLICATIONS

o  If not
treated properly, could lead to becoming a career stopper for major companies.
Those that suffer from this ailment are not considered for management or lead
in their industries.

Self-Conscious

“Man I promise, she's so self conscious
She has no idea what she's doing in college
That major that she majored in don't make no money
But she won't drop out, her parents will look at her funny” All falls Down – Kanye West

It’s getting down to the final stretch.

Senior year.

6 months.

1 semester.

What to do? What to do?

“Majoring in major that don’t make no money,” or a major brings difficulty finding a transitional job without getting a Doctorate is never a good position to be in ESPECIALLY when you lack confidence in your ability to get into a doctorate program brings even additional pressure.

Not being able to get a credible part-time job in the racist city that you’re currently receiving a bachelor’s degree in May of the preceding year, doesn’t help that self-confidence. In their eyes, people of color should work in the fast food industry and I will NEVER sink as low as working in any kind of fast food joint EVER.

Being surrounded by liars and people who want to cheat and profit off your sorrow, continuously decreases the sight of hope that you have in a pessimistic town like this. It makes me sick to believe that I have made this my home for the past 2 ½ years. This twisted town that I currently live in

WILL-BREAK-ME…

If I continue to breath and inhabit in its worthless existence. I won’t let myself be consumed by its hatred and negativity. I’m not one to give up but I would like to…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8kyWDhB_QeI 

List of 7

Nobody gets to live life backward. Look ahead,
that is where your future lies. -- Ann Landers
Difficult times have helped me to understand better than before, how infinitely
rich and beautiful life is in every way, and that so many things that one goes
worrying about are of no importance whatsoever...-- Isak
Dinesen

[Seven] Things That I Can’t
live W/O

1.      [MUSIC] – From Taylor Swift to Erykah Badu. I’m
open to any genre.

2.      [Comfort] -  I want to be comfortable with my finances. I don’t
have to have loads of gwap to make me happy. I just have to have enough to be
comfortable.

3.      [God] – I know everyone says that without HIM
nothing is possible but I take that to heart. I may not be as extremely close
as we should be but I am trying on it, I PROMISE!

4.      [Family] – All those that are blood related that
I adore and admire and inspire me. Even though, sometimes I’m like [Dude, you’re
not serious right now?] but I love them more or less. My friends that are close
to me I do consider my family.

5.      [Shon] – Very important person in my life. He’s
my panda bear and I can see him as my future and I’ll probably propose to him
one day even though he hates that thought.

6.      [EXPRESSIONISM] – I just want my inner soul to
flourish and grow spiritually, emotionally, intellectually, mentally, and any other
aspect that I cannot think of.

7.      [Sanity] – W/O sanity, I’ll go insane.

NOVEMBER 13, 2010; 12:47
pm

Tattoo

Ālīs volat
propriīs [LATIN] she flies with her own wings

I don’t want to ever get on here and start “RANTING” like
most people think bloggers do but I couldn’t help but fall into that realm of
skepticism for this thought that consumed me.

I was on facebook about an hour ago and came across a very
pregnant friend of mine. I somehow forgot how pregnant she was so I proceeded
to go through her pictures because, well, she was pregnant. I stopped at a
picture that she posted of herself showing off a brand spanking new tattoo that
she had gotten. I hate to be judgmental but that was one of the most
thoughtless tattoos that I have ever seen. I don’t even know what in the world
the tattoo said but it looked entirely too sloppy for it to be well thought
out.

LOOK! If you’re going to get a tattoo, PLEASEEE think about
it first. That “ink” that you so desperately NEED is not going to disappear
easily. It’s going to take numerous surgeries and it’s more painful than the
actual process of the tattoo.

I’m definitely not against tattoos. I think tattoos are an
airway that permits the inner soul and its desires access to run free and spill
out with pools of various strokes and styles. It gives those who aren’t
verbally elaborate the voice to speak through and from each crease of the dermis.

I have a tattoo and it didn’t take me years upon years of
thought to know what I wanted but it took me about three months.

1.      [THE THOUGHT] - I had no idea what I wanted but I
knew I wanted a tattoo. I didn’t want one for anyone else but myself. No one
pressured me to get it. They were actually all surprised that I wanted one.

2.      [THE PLAN] – I had to chart out what I wanted. I
knew with ever vein in my body a phrase of some sort would soot me. You know? Something
that would evoke an aesthetic response from me when I saw it. At first, I
figured I wanted a flower or an animal but it just seemed as cliché as getting
a heart, love symbol or tribal tattoo.

a.      [LATIN] – was a subject that I have some slight
interest and they usually have unique phrases and slight proverbs in the word
play. There were numerous phrases that of course EVERYONE had but I found 1
that stuck out to me; the one tattoo that made me say, that’s the one.

3.      [THE SELECTION] – The phrase just rolled off the
tongue with such finesse it was astounding. No other phrase made me feel
submerged in a freshly bloomed tulip with dew filled petals in the crisp dawn
air. It was the mightiest sense of beauty that I wish all could observe.
Greatness.

4.      [THE FINISH] – It took me about a month to find
the tattoo and about two for the process of getting that tattoo to be complete.
And I am still happy about the results of where and what the tattoo is about.

Don’t just get some crap that you’re not going to take with
a thorough embrace. It’s only a mistake if you make it one.

Dreamer

The best reason for having dreams is that in dreams no reasons are necessary. 

~Ashleigh Brilliant


I had a dream last night that made me laugh this morning. Who steals TI-83 plus
calculators that don't have the graphing part?



Just a brief summation of the dream:



I working in a mom and pop's convenient store that was run by an older couple
in the town. I SUPPOSE I lived in a smallish town with one this being the only convenient
store called The Willis’. The store had an array of tools and decorative items upon
entrance of the store. Walking towards the back of the store you’d find manure,
rakes, shovels, sod, and other lawn and garden products. In the center of the
store, there was a counter that contained office supplies.

Around 1130 in the morning the bell to the front door rang and in entered a
person that I knew quite well. I was shocked that he even came in let alone I
didn’t think he was even in town. This, I might say was the best unexpected
surprise. According to him, he heard that I was in town working at The Willis’
and wanted to stop by. Either way, I didn’t care how he got here I was just
happy to see him. I gave him huge hug and gave him a tour of the store. We were
talking and catching up when something caught his eye at the counter. He began
to approach the counter but before I could accompany him, my manager called me
into the backroom.

 

I don't know what my bosses name was
but I guess I can call him Mr. Willis. Mr. Willis was pleased to show me a
monitor that he has just installed in the backroom. He told me he set up 4
cameras; one in front of the store, one in the backroom, one behind the cash
register, and the last above the entrance of the front door. He was so excited
about his achievement; he didn’t know how to use it.

“I don’t know. There has to be
something like a script or a collection of words placed on paper that
instructed you to do certain things with these cameras. I don’t know, I think
it’s called a manual or something. Who knows,” I joked.

He grunted, “Oh stop it! There’s a
customer in the front that you should service. GET IT, customer service. Go on”

I hustled off to the front laughing
to see who it was but it was just my surprise visitor.

“Hey! How long are you going to be
here? My lunch is coming up soon so ---.”

 

I don't know if he was zoned out or
something but he was staring at the counter extremely hard.

 

"(Slight laughter) what do keep
staring at," I said puzzled?

"Um… Are those TI-83 plus calculators?"

 

"Yes I think so but I think
there's something missing. I think that's why they're so cheap right now."

"What’s wrong with them,"
he asks as he pulls out a cloth bag from his pocket.

"What's the cloth bag
for?"

He began to suspiciously bag the
pink and black calculators slowly but surely.

"WHOA! Wait a minute! What are
you doing? You can't do that... They don't even work properly. I think these
are like the defective TI-83 calculators without something… Hold on a sec!” I
pick up a pink calculator and began to press buttons. I snapped and said, “See!
That’s what it was. The graphing part, it doesn’t work. (Let out slight
laughter) Why would you want to steal these?He stopped for a second and slowly
lowered the bag and looked at me in amazement. He said, "Why don't they
have the graphing if it's a graphing calculator?"

"Honestly, I don't know. I
questioned the same thing when I tried to do some homework ---"

He made an over exaggerated
interjection, "Well I'm going to take them anyway and sell them on
craigslist - someone’s bound to buy them."

“WOW!” I turned and looked at the
camera and looked back at him –And then...

Forgiveness

To forgive is indeed the best form of self-interest since anger, resentment, and revenge are corrosive of that "summum bonum," the greatest good.

- Bishop Desmond Tutu

Forgiveness. What exactly is it? Huh?

In courts, you hear, We, the family of _______, FORGIVE this man, _________, for the crime that he has committed. Because through this FORGIVENESS we can overcome this travesty that has occurred in our family.

I think it takes quite a strong individual to issue out this forgiveness statement. I don't believe that individual is me by any means. I've always been taught not to hold a grudge because God wants you to seek forgiveness for those that have harmed, shamed, and angered you. He forgave you the forgiveness of being a sinner and will continue to give you the forgiveness when you seek it. I understand that reciprocation factor but I'm still not sure if I can go beyond the verb spatter and into the actual sequence of the action word.

I feel that if I do establish this quality, I will not only be closer to God but at peace with myself when events bring this decision of forgiving or not. Sigh... There has to be a manual about it somewhere, someplace.

I guess the next order of business would be the forgetting.

I wonder... Is there anything in the bible about forgiving but not forgetting?

I don't want to become a naive form of myself when someone had done me wrong and then forgive them and forget about the situation that lead me to forgiving them in the first place. I may have to look that secondary part up because I don't want to end up using that rift between us against them because then that isn't forgiveness. Or is it?

Once you begin to figure out on aspect of this category, sub titles and sub categories start to appear.

To be quite frank, I think this topic is a bit too deep for just ONE POST. I should do more research about the matter and see how the development of these jumbled up thoughts of mine have grown.