When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
- Alexander Graham Bell
I hate being friends w a guy then the bastard starts throwing out 'I like you' 'want to be more than friends' 'would you consider getting with me' etc.. First off MF keep your feelings to yourself. Who freaking knows how many friendships I've had that have been ruined by one of the above phrases or something similar. You know, sometimes a girl just wants a guy to be just her friend. Not friends w benefits. Not part time man. Not full time man. Nothing more than just FRIENDS.
I don't mind if you like me and you keep your damned feelings to yourself. Cool but don't tell me. That ruins everything bc I now think about that everytime we are together. I have to change my mannerisms bc I don't want you think I'm ever going to be into you.
Oh and if we are friends, I will make sure to pick you apart completely and that you have qualities about yourself that I hate so I won't fall for you. And texting will be very infrequent. I don't want you to get ideas.
It just amazes me how guys can't just be friends w a chick without thinking something's going to happen BECAUSE ITS NOT HAPPENING KIDDO!
If I ever get married or into another relationship, I want it to be summed up in this song. Such a beautiful song. This song gives me a lachrymose response. It's such a dynamically amazing song.
When I heard it, I see me and that person, whomever he is. I see my wedding day. Anyone who knows me understands that's huge statement coming from me but it's true. I have so much hope for the future and when I hear this song my heart flutters in excitement.
Oh by the way, this fellow who I dated for a few months shy of forever, has been deliberately holding up communication with me. That last sentence sounds very negative but do not take it as so. Any who, I really need to ask him what he wants from me. I know it'll be perceived as a rude statement but I want to know. I have tried to get over him for awhile. Once I thought I was rid of him, he'd crawl his way back into my sights. Through many months of deleted photos, messages, number, displaced number, removal of bathetic items, pray of forgetting about him, etc... He comes back. So I'm contemplating where this is a curse or I'm being beatified unknowingly. If I'm bring blessed w this then are we meant to be friends, try again, or am I to help him w his next relationship. We shall see. Again, we are cordial and at solace w one another (on my end, I think his too). So only time shall tell. If he just stated what he wanted, I'd be happier.
Back to the reason I wrote this, this is one of my favorite songs and albums on my phone. Best r&b I've heard in ages. Beautiful. Makes me happy to hear music and not over saturated profanity and pure sex. I can listen to this entire album without skipping songs. Eek. So good.
I can't wait to wake up to my future w a kiss on the forehead and calm in his eyes.
Okay, so the other day... Well last Friday, December 13th, Beyonce released her fifth cd. It was truly a surprise even to me. Beyonce, in my mind is hit or miss. Her last cd I only really acknowledged 3 songs and the rest were pretty useless. Honestly when I heard about this cd, I was listening to the radio and they were playing 'Drunk in Love' and I hated it. I was like what is this crap. I don't really care for Jay Z because his raps recently are garBAGEEEE. Beyond that, it had an off sound and truly, some songs on the radio sound much different than their mastered iTunes versions or whatever. I purchased it later that evening and honestly was more excited about the video portion and it was mind blowing.
From the songs, it sounded like she'd matured. She know excepts who and what she is. From who she is to her sexuality as a woman. All together, I can appreciate this body of work. She took her time with this album.She just sounds like she is comfortable with herself and willing to allow herself to finally be seen by the public. That being said, I did one run through of the videos. THERE IS SO MUCH BUTT. I have never seen so much full on butt. She's lost weight and is slim and more toned but leave something to the imagination. It was so much for my eyes to focus on.
I'm currently listening to the album for the second time. About 6 or 7 songs are purely sexually referenced. They are just over saturated with that and it's a bit much. While those songs are playing I'm just uttering 'EW' the entire freaking song(s). It's a lot to handle. It's not like she hasn't made references like this before but they were more subtle and seemed to have multiple meanings. This is just blatant and easy off the tongue.
My favorite songs are Mine(absolute favorite), XO, Heaven(I can't listen to more than twice in a row), and I'm starting to like Superpower. Blue is a cute song. Again, it is a great body of work BUT she still is hit or miss for me. It's just so much sex. I may be saying this because i have no one to call my own and that makes me biased. I just don't want to envision Jay Z and Beyonce doing anything.I love music outside the realm of sex, drugs and money.
When i downloaded this album, it messed up my iTunes album artwork which is super annoying. I'm trying to fix it but that ain't working.
ANYWAYS. Perhaps you'll like it. I have attached the links for the videos...
ENJOY!
Mine
XO
Heaven
Purchase it or preview the songs and purchase what you like. I do like the videos but eh she's still hit or miss for me.
OHHHHH! After I purchased the album, I purchased this song by Childish Gambino ft Jhene Aiko, Pink Toes which I love. Made the mistake of purchasing the entire album which I wish you could return an album after 1 minute of purchasing. It's an amazing song and an alright album.
They jacked up this version of it but check iTunes or another website to hear the song. I really like Jhene Aiko. That's truly the only reason I purchased the album....
