Cold turkey

It has come to my attention, that I'm not taking my future and/or life seriously. Slacking is an understatement. Moreso, procrastination to its finest. I received a eye opening warning of what is to come if I do not pass this procrastination phase. I do not want anymore bad omens. From now until the end of the year I am devoting myself fully to my many opportunities that I have been provided with countless times. Only the important will be sought. My path, encumbered with distractions. No more shall that be the reasoning for my down fall. I'm done with all that stands in my way. 

Sweet death... Take my distractions and lack of discipline with you as your prey on the unfortunate. 

I will not be turned astray from my destiny. I will not! 

Dirty Laundry

Guess where I am? Haha a laundry mat place. I don't think I've been here since I was itty bitty but my washer is currently broken and it's been like 2 months since I really washed clothes. I don't wash all the time. Perhaps every 2 or 3 months when I'm really washing but I have to wear scrubs to work and I need those washed more frequently. I was so skeptical about the cleanliness but shit I have to get this done so I don't have to worry about it until December. Haha. 

Thrills of being sick.

I've been sick for a few days. Nothing major I think. No idea what I've had. I tried to take all medicines to cover all of my bases. Wednesday I took 3 100mg ibuprofen at once and 2 sinus tablets. Thursday took a 24 hour allergy pill that night. Friday took some cold and allergy  dimetapp. Went to work and everyone was like go home. My cheeks were red. My eyes were puffy and hurt to the touch. Body ached. Headache was starting again. I had the same body aching headache since Wednesday. Had all this pressure built up. My body generally holds in quite a bit of heat but I was burning up but felt cold. I really thought it was the fact that I rode with my windows down and the pressure from the wind was too great for me. I remember I took a nap as soon as I got home Wednesday. So many thought I had the flu or a cold or an allergic reaction to something etc. idk. I thought I just ran a fever. I had a small bit of pizza and cereal, drank Gatorade, rented redbox movies, slept and that was that. Took some DayQuil when I got home and NyQuil in the evening. So honestly don't know what's going on. 

Now my skin is irritated. I keep scratching all over. I can't wash my sheets bc the washer is outta commish at the moment. Hope Hershel hasn't brought anything in. I lysoled for now. I'm starting to get red splotches from scratching so Much. Can't wait till this is all over. Good grief. 

Survey says?

First name ?

Last name?

Age?

City?

State?

Occupation?

One word describe yourself?

Why is it when I am asked to describe myself, I go blank. I honestly can say I have the most trouble describing myself. I guess I don't really know myself. I know who I'd like to be but nothing more than that. 

When I asked someone, their response was: independent, hard working, beautiful etc

Now those words are good but not what I necessarily want to be known for. I used to be a free spirit, self assure, logical, analytical, creative, a visionary and smart. 

These days I feel less like a free spirit. 

I'm not sure of who I am anymore. I know what I want to be but not sure how or where my legacy begins. 

Logic is out the window and so is analytical. 

Barely creative and nowhere near visionary. 

I haven't felt smart in at least 7 months. I feel my brain function is diminishing. 

The only thing I can say I have going for me is visually and orally my memory is intact, sight is good, my hearing is much better than I really thought. I'm not able to soak up random knowledge like I used to and regurgitate it back at you. I feel like I can't spell sometimes. 

I'm somehow impaired and I need to get my original characteristics back bc I don't like who I am now. Tired of trying to adapt and conform to others which, in turn, diminishes my character. Lord knows I need a change; I'm just now realizing it. 

I missed out

So I've been investigating Macs recently and have decided I really want one. The one I want is the MacBook Pro. The MacBook Pro w retina display is vibrant but you can't print picture in the same vibrant display. So it's not that big of a deal to me. Anywho, the regular 13" MacBook Pro runs about 1200 but w all the additives and specs it's about 2100. So I'm trying to decide when I should get it. The thoughts been in the back of my mind since August. 

I just so happen to get an update for 1saleaday.com and there it is the 13" mac I want for 700 bucks. First thought, is it refurbished? Said brand new. Now you and I both know Mac computers rarely go on sale. The most I've seen is a hundred buck discount. So I'm all let's do it. Once I get to the website it's freakin sold out which makes me sad for a moment. 

Oh well. Better luck next time, right. If you see any on sale, let me know or I'll just force myself to spend 2100 :(

Hey, Good Lookin' - Hank Williams

There's this older gentleman that I know who sings this all the time. I always wondered who sang it and where he got the song from. I LOVE IT.

Hope you enjoy it.

Hoe - Jhené Aiko feat. Miguel and Gucci Mane

I really love the song. It stays on repeat. 

Hope you enjoy it too.