Seriously...

I don't know what is possessing people to start devouring human parts like that's the meat you should eat. I promise the economy is not that bad. People have lost it.
Whomever is whispering in your ear telling you to eat people... STOP LISTENING TO THEM

Flashing Lights

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this song... Not just because Dwele sings the hook but there was a meaning behind the video and the lyrics. It was fun cracking the coding of it. Do you know the meaning? ENJOY

Flashing lights, lights
Flashing lights, lights
Flashing lights, lights
Flashing lights, lights

[Kanye West]
She don't believe in shootin' stars,
but she believe in shoes & cars
Wood floors in the new apartment,
couture from the store's department
You more like L'eau de Stardee shit,
I'm more of the, trips to Florida
Order the h'orderves, views of the Water
Straight from the page of your favorite author
And the weather so breezy,
man why can't life always be this easy
She in the mirror dancing so sleazy,
I get a call like where are you Yeezy
Try to hit you with a 'Oeur de Whopee'
Till I get flashed by the paparazzi
Damn, these nigga's got me,
I hate these nigga's more than the Nazis

[Dwele]
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
What do I know? Flashing lights, lights
What do I know? Flashing lights, lights

[Kanye West]
I know it's been a while,
Sweetheart, we hard-ly talk, I was doing my thing
I know I was foul bay-bay,
a-bay late-ly you been all on my brain,
And if somebody would've told me a month ago
Fronting though, yo I wouldn't wanna know
If somebody would've told me a year ago
it'd go, get this difficult
Feeling like Katrina with no fema
Like Martin with no Gina
Like a flight with no visa
First class with the seat back I still see ya
In my past, you on the other side of the glass
Of my memory's museum,
I'm just saying, Hey Mona Lisa,
come home you know you can't Rome without Caesar

[Dwele]
As I recall, I know you love to show off
But I never thought that you would take it this far
What do I know? Flashing lights, lights
What do I know? Flashing lights, lights

As you recall, you know I love to show off
But you never thought that I would take it this far
What do you know? Flashing lights, lights
What do you know? Flashing lights, lights

Flashing lights, lights
Flashing lights, lights

[Fade out]
Lights, lights, lights, lights...

Organizational Gestures... 2

I just got off the phone with one of my favorite people. The realization of the future hit me. I've decided to make a time management chart.

1. GRE: study and take it

- So I've taken it once before but fell asleep in the middle of it. It was such a long test I was just exhausted. 

- I took it as a practice test but this time I'll need to take it seriously

2. Apply for grad schools and know what I need to do to get there

- This is a huge step so this'll take a lot of time and effort. I'm limiting my grad schools to Texas but I shouldn't. - I just don't want to get stuck with $150,000 loan that I have to pay back. Whomp!

3. Move : I love to travel and pack but I hate to unpack. I'm lazy sometimes.

- I either move to another city or state now or wait until grad school

4. Quit my job. Haha this is the fun part right - NOPE. It's been real and being a store manager of a store that was suppose to be closing and making it the best in the district was fun but I feel like I've done all I can here and it's time to move on to something else.

5. Workout. I've lost weight and I'll I have been eating is fast food for the past 4 weeks. So I need to eat right and tone up. I look like a puppet. 

Let's see if I can make it happen. There's no one in my way but myself so this is going to be a challenge.

No Church in the Wild

Human beings in a mob
What’s a mob to a king?
What’s a king to a god?
What’s a god to a non-believer?
Who don’t believe in anything?

We make it out alive
All right, all right
No church in the wild

Political? YES
Hierarchy of power? YES
Church VS State? Maybe.

Non-believer > God > King > Mob

With a non-believer, if there is not an acceptance of a hire power, whose to say what's right or wrong? The non-believer knows no heaven nor hell. Your morals, reasoning nor ideals have any justification for their actions. That being said, with no boundaries, theirs confusion, chaos, lack of order which causes....?

You guessed it... WHAT YOU SEE IN THIS VIDEO.

I really love videos that make you think. ENJOY

Sidebar: I always thought he said, 'No church in the choir.'  It sounds like it.

I fell in love with the distinct beat of this song then video and finally actually really listening to the words

Ugh

My finger is leaking! And it smells terrible! Ugh

Okay. To the beginning of life's organizational gesture... Cheers.

1. Go to work for an hour and a half
2. Wash clothes/pack clothes.
- Sidebar: that fiat is so tiny. The trunk is the width of my body. Smh
3. Get gas
4. Drive away
- Sidebar: I wonder if it's safe to drive long distances in a fiat??? Gotta look that up
5. See family and steal second youngest sister. It's her birthday today! Yay.
6. Learn Spanish. blah! I'm really reaching with this. If I want that job in Spain, I have to know how to pronounce it.
7. Call this other company back... Almost forgot

Haha definitely reaching!

Okay that about sums up my day. I wonder how much I can check off today.

Yesterday's reflection

I absolutely hate when I miss my devotional from yesterday and go back and read it today and it's something I could've been thinking about. Sigh. The life I live is reckless sometimes.

Anywho, yesterday's thought were about time management and prioritizing your life. Time management is such a good trait to have; it shows your disciplined.

Take things day by day before your time is up.

I needed it yesterday but I'll try to use it on a daily. Enjoy.

Be very careful, then, how you live—not as unwise but as wise, making the most of every opportunity, because the days are evil. Therefore do not be foolish, but understand what the Lord's will is. (Ephesians 5:15-17 NIV)

Gay Comic Book Characters...

So... Where to begin.

First and foremost, if your destiny in life is to be gay, then be gay. I don't hate homosexuals. I don't hate lesbians. I wish bisexuals would choose a side and sit down! If your gay, your gay. You were given FREEWILL in order to make your own decisions and develop your own path.

You wanted equality FINE. Live your life, I DON'T CARE!

Month by month each state is starting to acknowledge your equality. And this is great, I am seriously happy for you but why this?

I get it, "everything and anything" needs to be equal but why comic books. Sometimes, y'all be doing the most. Honestly, doing entirely too much. I just wanna know why. Why go there? I need an answer besides the top 3 that I know of for sure.

Seriously!

On agreeable terms

I think I may be the only person happy about smallish cars.
I'm so happy I got this!
Whoop-whoop!

By the way, I need to set a reminder to pack and grab some boxes from work. Blah I love packing. I just hate unpacking. That is why I will live outta my bag for the next couple months.

Kinda freaked out

So there was some random banging I hear and I honestly thought I was dreaming it but I wake up and it's actually happening. Idk if I should call the cops but one of my roommates heard it too.

It stopped. Idk.

It was too heavy for a roommate to be trying to get our attention. Sigh idk. It's really bother me.


...


Now someone is actually knocking.
... I'm not getting up.
My heart is beating so fast right now.

Perfect Matchmaker

Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. (Matthew 6:8 NIV)

Another lesson from my favorite chapter in the bible. So many lessons from this one chapter. I love it!

Too Close - Alex Clare

And it feels like I am just too close to love you
There's nothing I can really say
I can't lie no more, I can't hide no more
Got to be true to myself
And it feels like I am just too close to love you
So I'll be on my way
- Alex Clare

I've heard this song numerous times today and I figured I give it a go and see if it's a hit or miss. So far, I love it. The way he enunciates each word and the power seen behind each lyric makes you love this. He's truly a gifted vocalist.

LIVE VERSION 

ENJOY!

Diary - Alicia Keys

This is one of my favorite songs. It puts me in such a pleasant mood and I clarity is simplified. Her voice is amazing and I'm glad I came up around the time she came out. She's beautiful and has an amazing range.

BUT SHE'S STILL A HOMEWRECKER!

Enjoy!

"Diary"

[Verse 1:]
Lay your head on my pillow
Here you can be yourself
No one has to know what you are feelin'
No one but me and you

[Hook:]
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep your secrets (yes, I will)
Just think of me as the pages in your diary

[Verse 2:]
I feel such a connection
Even when you're far away.
Oh, baby if there is anything that you fear (anything)
Just call my number baby, baby and I'll be here

[Hook 2:]
I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me (safe with me)
I will keep your secrets (yes, I will)
Just think of me as the pages in your diary

Yeah, a-ha, oh.

[Bridge:]
Only we know what is talked about, baby boy
I don't know how you could be driving me so crazy, boy
Baby when you're in town why don't you come around, boy?
I'll be the loyalty you need
You can trust me, boy, a-ha

[Hook:]
I won't tell (no, no, no) your secrets (I won't tell nobody)
Your secrets are safe with me (safe with me)
I will keep (I will keep) your secrets (your...)
Just think of me as the pages in your diary

Everybody say
Ohhhhh (ohhhhh)
Let me hear you say
Ohhhhh (ohhhhh)
Everybody say
Ohhhhh (ohhhhhh)
Let me hear you say
Ohhhhh (ohhhhhhh)

Now say, I won't tell (I won't tell)
I won't tell (I won't tell)
I won't tell (I won't tell)
Your secrets, your secrets
Bring it down

Oooooooh,

Girl I won't tell nobody babe)
(Girl I won't tell nobody baby, yeah)

[Throughout outro:]
I won't tell
[Outro:]
No, no, no, no, no...
Cuz I love you
And I need you baby
Yeah
No no no...
Sing it, sing it for me baby
(Yeah)
(Your secrets are so safe with me)
No way
(No way)...

Your secrets
Your secrets no, no, no, yeah

No Such Thing - John Mayer

Loved this song when I was younger.

Jesus time!

My favorite chapter/verses in the bible are Matthew 6: 1-34
The whole chapter is amazing. God and Jesus both have a sense of humor. I seem to chuckle whenever they speak. It's long but it has so much in it that can't be justified by one passage. Enjoy

"Be careful not to practice your righteousness in front of others to be seen by them. If you do, you will have no reward from your Father in heaven. "So when you give to the needy, do not announce it with trumpets, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and on the streets, to be honored by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, so that your giving may be in secret. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. "And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. And when you pray, do not keep on babbling like pagans, for they think they will be heard because of their many words. Do not be like them, for your Father knows what you need before you ask him. "This, then, is how you should pray:
"'Our Father in heaven,
hallowed be your name, your kingdom come,
your will be done,
on earth as it is in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. And forgive us our debts,
as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation,
but deliver us from the evil one.' For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. "When you fast, do not look somber as the hypocrites do, for they disfigure their faces to show others they are fasting. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. But when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face, so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also. "The eye is the lamp of the body. If your eyes are healthy, your whole body will be full of light. But if your eyes are unhealthy, your whole body will be full of darkness. If then the light within you is darkness, how great is that darkness! "No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and money. "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? "And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:1-34 NIV)

Invictus

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Doctor visit

Got the illest shot in my hip and this mess has my right butt cheek and thigh numb. And my finger is still swollen and throbbing. Guess I'll wait until tmrw to see if there's a difference.

If its not one thing it's something else

My finger is in so much pain right now. It's swollen and throbbing and it hurts. Every week it's something.
Last week, car accident
Week before last, some extreme allergic reaction

Now this. I really try to live a simple Life but clearly it's not.

My friends have told me I have the least simple life 0_o

Last week... Glad its over

Got into a car accident... Another almost occurred right after.

Yelled at my bosses boss bc she's an idiot and how she got her job doesn't make any sense. The company doesn't make a lick of sense but I don't make the rules here.

Fortunately, that was my bottom. I met two girls with the same birthday which is very uncommon. (February 1st)

Ended up having a better week at the job.
Now I need to worry about my car that's messed up. Smh.

Oh and last week I had some random allergic reaction to something and turned bright red and had spots and welts all over my body.

Hopefully this week will have greater outcomes.

I LOVE HER!

I LOVE HER! I mean she may be chaotic at times but all-in-all, she's fun.

First verse of CHEERS turns anyone's bad day into something good.

This song has been on REPEAT since March.

I watched music videos with one of my good friends yesterday and I came up on this. They did an amazing job. Haha I wish i had some kinda rhythm now.

Hope your in a great mood like I am!

I choose YOU!

 “Even if you stumble, you’re still moving forward.”

After consideration, a pros and cons list, careful evaluation, futuristic outlook, and implications, I have chosen Vanilla.
'Why Vanilla,' you ask... Well for lack of a vocabulary, I have chosen Vanilla because Vanilla has never steered me wrong. I mean you have posers like 'French Vanilla or Vanilla Bean' but standard Vanilla has never wanted to be altered because of it's lack of dimension or surprise. It's just Vanilla. Over the last month and a half, I've tried others like Blue Bells: Strawberry, Butter Crunch, Strawberries and Homemade Vanilla, the Great Divide, Rocky Road (my favorite 80% of the time) and Haagen Dazs Vanilla Swiss Almond (which would have been great but I hate dark chocolate) but none is quite like Vanilla. I pick all of them apart.


Strawberry - has too many whole strawberries

Butter Crunch - too much Butterfinger pieces

Strawberries and Homemade Vanilla - too much Strawberry AGAIN

Great Divide - it's alright but ugh boring

Rocky Road - I hate marshmallows and sometimes I pick the out

Vanilla Swiss Almonds - that dark chocolate ruined everything for me

You can't pick apart Vanilla, you can only add to it.

Any epiphany

“There's nothing better when something comes and hits you and you think 'YES'!”
― J.K. Rowling

“I never made one of my discoveries through the process of rational thinking”
― Albert Einstein

“Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.”
― Alice Sebold, The Lovely Bones

So I know I typically just put one quote but they all had something moving about them that I couldn't just stick to one. 

Around 8:17 this evening, I had this extraordinary epiphany. I've been fighting with so many directions and wandering to and fro just realize I'm back where I almost started. I say almost because I'm not in the same location originally but looking at the location as an outsider... That may or may not make sense but I have no urge to proof it.

Anywho... I can't say just at this moment what I've come to formally recognize. I have to wait for an email and a letter to arrive then I'll announce it. I'm excited. I'll be back on my destined path soon if all goes well.