Times like these...

... I feel the most lonely.
This feeling has lingered  tastelessly for months now. It was present for days then weeks and now months. Most don't know my greatest fear but it's not loneliness, it's being left behind. The sadness it brings me is beyond what most see.

"Hey"
"hey"
"What's wrong?"
"nothing"
"Are you sure?"
"yeah"
"Stacy, really what's wrong? Your say one thing but your eyes say another..."

Truest words I have ever heard. I always hid my sadness from other. A simple trick I learned early at age 2. I only want to be saved from it and remove myself from the awful elements I'm thrown in. I wanna be safe but that'll never happen here.