Ah! I'm awake...

This who I wake up to every morning. He's getting so big. His head is getting big. Lol. I enjoy his presence even-though he likes to naw on my fingers. He's always on the attack w his mouth always open. Ugh I love him!

So sad but eh...

So no play date for Hershel. I was sad for a bit but we can always reschedule.

So I really like working out for some reason. I keep hearing that I have this hard face when I'm working out lol. It's mainly bc I'm focused but I can talk in between but not during. My back is sore from yesterday, which is great, and I'm praying I'll be sore tomorrow too.

I spent most of the day with Hershel so he got Stacy on OVERLOAD today. I had a pop quiz which I magically looked over the items earlier this morning (Bam!)

Even-though Hershel didn't meet a new friend, today was an amazing day.

Well I have to take Hershel to his kennel and get to bed.

Have an amazing day tmrw.

Verse of the day

giving thanks always for all things to God the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, (Ephesians 5:20 NKJV)

Thank you for the opportunities and gifts you have given me. Thank you for the challenges you lay ahead. Thank you for the wonderful people you have surrounded me with. Thank you for allowing me to learn from my mistakes. Saying thank you is never enough, I pray that in time my gratitude is actually displayed.

Thank you Lord Jesus.

Anticipation

Tmrw's a big day for myself and Hershel. I'm beyond thrilled.

This past weekend I went home to visit friends and family. Hershel and my friend's dog named Butter would not get along. It took them three days to get it together.

My family loved him and so did my friends.

Oh and by the way, my dad and I aren't beefing any longer. Yay!

Last night.

That drive wasn't as bad as it usually is. I was tired the first 45 minutes but stopped for a snickers blizzard and small fry and I was okay for the remainder.
Hershel? He was good. When I stopped to let him pee, he basically peed for forever. Longest pee ever. He would whine a little bit when we first started. He is usually in the front seat but I had to put him in his kennel. He's too much to handle at times.
Oh and yeah that number 254 popped up on a sign and on my dashboard. I never not see it (hopefully that sentence is understood). I can't get away from it.
Ah! So Hershel and Butter won't be playing together. Butter keeps try to maul Hershel to death. I'll punch butter in the butt if he tries that nonsense again. No he's just chilling w Gilbert whom he loves.
Oh yeah and this was the only song I repeated.

Sorry, that was a serious rap up. P

First trip

Going home w Hershel for the weekend. His first full length trip. I'm tired and only drove for like 45 minutes while he sleeps. I'll update one I stop again or get to my destination in like 4 hrs! Haha

Verse of the day

What is success to you?

I think it has to do with being all you can be in life. Being a well rounded person who fulfills his/her destiny without loosing his/herself in the process. (Not the best collect of words but its the gist of my idea of success)

This is how my devoutional defines it as:

Success is the process of fulfilling your purpose in life and doing it well. In short, success is a by-product of a life well lived.
I propose to you that the most successful person who ever lived is Jesus Christ. He knew what His purpose was: to reveal God to us in a person and to offer himself as our Savior by dying for our sins. He fulfilled it perfectly. Jesus Christ was the most successful man who ever walked this earth. Why don't you look to Him in faith? He'll put you on the road to success--God's way.

Only be strong and very courageous, that you may observe to do according to all the law which Moses My servant commanded you; do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may prosper wherever you go. (Joshua 1:7 NKJV)

Yellow pages

So... I think I've used the yellow pages before but today... Was the worst attempt.

So apparently, car rentals is not under vehicles or car or rentals. And not under transportation. Eventually I looked under car rentals which sent me to auto car rentals which was the smallest section ever.

Haha I need to know how to use those. Gave Hershel his first bath which was an experience.
He's so big now!

I think I'm allergic to him bc my allergies and face, eyes, and head all hurt. This happens the first night I got him and now it's happening again. Sigh.

Verse(s) of the day

So... All these verses that I read today just hit. I read one and said that's true. Read the second, that's true too. And the third, clearly The Lord is on a role and my mind is super open to accept all that needs to be taught. He you go, a three-fer. (That's definitely not how you spell that, :) sorry guys)

1. Verse of the day!

I have shown you in every way, by laboring like this, that you must support the weak. And remember the words of the Lord Jesus, that He said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’ ” (Acts 20:35 NKJV)

I definitely try to give double what I receive, not in money but in other ways. Money, in my opinion is thoughtless...

2. Verse to remember!

But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For The Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” (1 Samuel 16:7 NKJV)

Shows us how petty and how one minded we think sometimes. Take people as they are and AVOID judging at all cost. People work so hard on the outward appearance, it's the inners that actually count folks.

3. Devotional

Do not deprive one another except with consent for a time, that you may give yourselves to fasting and prayer; and come together again so that Satan does not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. (1 Corinthians 7:5 NKJV)

This one was about sexual freedom but eh you could use it in multiple ways. I actually can't think of another at the moment but you get the jist of it.

Superstar - usher

An old favorite

Diamonds - Rihanna

It took me a few weeks but think I like it finally.

So today...

Was alright. Woke up, took Hershel to the bathroom, went to work, left, thought about going to the gym (obviously, I didn't), and came home, played with Hershel and ate.

Simple enough... Exactly. So Hershel was in the kitchen sniffing around and wobbled his butt to the carpet to pee. Ugh this dog! Crazy thing is, he knew I was mad at him for that bs. We made up. He's sleeping in my bathroom now (thank goodness).

I love him but he drives me WILD.

Being followed

You ever get the feeling, your being haunted by something? Well I believe I'm being haunted or either followed by the number '254.'

Strange... Yes but I always seem to look at the clock at that exact time or I'm on Instagram and someone has 254 pictures or 254 likes... It's beginning to be a bit overwhelming.

I know what it's has to do with but idk. Not really feeling the root of the number right now

I'm annoyed -_-

Very tired

After hours of playing with Macy, Hershel is extremely tired. Thank goodness! I get to sleep early, yay!

Calvin Harris feat. Florence Welch

Feeling this song. Check it out if you get the chance today.

WWJD?

In the wee hours of the morning, I am wide awake wondering why I've yet to sleep.

Alas, love gone lost is my issue. Should I A. Continuously hit time after time, the redo button? Or B. get rid of this old deck and trade it out for a brand new crisp one?

Redo... Restart...

So which is it? Idk. The decision had been made, whether I will try my own path is my decision.

Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 NKJV)

And to think, I put baby Hershey to bed early so I could catch up on last nights extreme lack of sleep bc of studying... :/

So until next time, stay focused, blessed and above all humble.

Night all!

Last few words

What an end to a splendid day. Jesus humor and a beautiful pup sleeping! What more can I ask for!!

Night all! Give thanks and stay humble. Definitely trying to remember that!

Night.

In or Out

The truth speaks!

True love

I've always wonder what it was. I've been close to it but never just clicked. I can finally say, without a doubt, I'm in love.

He's got a charm about him. Predictable but still unpredictable. Every one that has met him sees it. There's always a lost for words when I'm around him.
We did have a bit of a roughy night yesterday but today's been special. I left work early bc I wasn't feeling well and upon my arrival home, he hit me w hugs and kisses.
He looked at me earlier with his majestic grayish eyes and all I see is honesty, trust and a longing to be with me. Absolutely riveting, right? All that in just one glance.

I'd been feeling empty a while back but since he's come into my life, I feel whole again. I hope this feeling never goes away.

It's amazing how lying in my arms makes you feel the same way as I.

Though I haven't said it where you can hear, I love you. Your all and everything I could have been blessed with. Your peace and harmony bring me endless joy.

Resist!

Don't drink the Kool aid!
Don't eat the crackers

Fork in the road

So I think I know what's going on... It came to me while I was working out. I'm being tested by the one and only G-O-D. I don't know why I hadn't noticed before.

Whenever I have options, counterparts, I'm being tested. After feeling the way I've been feeling, I now see its a bit of a pattern.

Because of free will, I've been allotted in taking any path my being chooses. So the question is, will I continue down the path that has been mapped and etched out so perfectly or shall I sketch my own path. Idk. It's a tough call.

In my destined path, I'm not a major priority. I'm actually not even thought of or worse not even regarded as a 'potential' priority. I know in time all shall change but asking for a text or call once or twice a week isn't that hard. Communication is snipped yet AGAIN. And this is starting to become embarrassing.

My path, seems promising. Unfortunately all that glitters surely isn't gold. I'd be taking a huge risk and time isn't on my side w this one. Idk. I think that's the path the devil would like me to change courses to. God will not leave me no matter the path I choose but advices me to still w destiny. Sigh. Tough call.

Touch call...

Self realization

I am a worrier. Unfortunately, that's the way I am programmed to be. First and foremost, I should put myself before everyone else bc unfortunately this world is built around selfish human beings. Yet another down fall.
H
Ahh I'd really like to scream cry my heart out but Crying is not my kind of game.

It makes me so mad when I feel a relationship I'm in is one sided. It's beyond frustrating bc I try to be so much and do so much for everyone else that I loose myself along the way.

I'm really tired of putting myself out there and getting walked on. So I will put myself first and worry about others after I've gotten myself settled and outta the way.

People...

So I pull out my tablet to watch this new series (which I love) the killing: who killed rose Logan. Awesome this far. I try to pull up Netflix and the series but look what I see IT STILL DOESN'T WORK. Grrr.

In the bottom right hand corner pulls up a message sent on Facebook. So I log on and check it. Look what it said.

I hate when people don't answer direct question. She's a waste of key strokes. I tried my hardest to not say the first think to mind and luckily I didn't. I just broke it down in a less than brash way.

What does asking my dad have to do w you answering my question about you and YOUR family!?

What a waste. Pure waste of my time

Smh

By the way, this all started with her friend request. Completely forgot about her until then... Smh.

Let me start off...

By saying sorry. I've been busy trying to plan out my next course for life.

- Which occupational therapy schools to apply for
- avoiding applying for schools (I'm quite lazy these days)
- taking that abnormal psychology class for the second time.
- volunteering at 2 different facilities that involve kids (surprise surprise, I know. I hate kids)
- getting my car fixed Grrr
- sleep deprived bc of all that and
- working 45-75 hrs a week but getting paid for 45.
- trying to make sure everyone else is emotionally stable while I'm slowly deteriorating. :/

I shall be back to this.